Life Changes

This time of year, I always find myself reflecting on my life.  This year especially, I've  been thinking about the past few years of my life and thinking how drastically my life has changed in such a short time. Two years ago, I was living in a sheep camp on top of the mountain with my horses and a bunch of dogs! Tyrell and I worked for Thousand Peaks Ranch and we were gathering cows. We covered a lot of miles on our poor horses and rode them all into the dirt! At the time, I thought for sure, "Wow, this is the time of my life!" I had no idea what was in store for me!

My life very quickly went from sheep camp livin to baby raisin! After working for Thousand Peaks, I went back to Sanpete County and the Bar J where I grew up working. I worked there all summer moving cows, riding colts, and just generally loving life. I had a very busy summer, as I was also planning my wedding.

I got married in September and moved to Skull Valley the next day. I'll have to say, it was quite an adjustment for me. I went from having my own job and my own horses to sharing everything. I traded my favorite horse and I found myself no longer owning anything that was just mine. I wasn't the one getting business and getting outside horses anymore. I worked in the feedlot with my husband, but all the calls from people needing colts ridden came for him. It was hard on me. It made me feel pretty useless. I thought hard about what I was doing with my life and what my place was in the world. I always thought I knew; horses are my passion. I don't want to say my husband took that from me, it wasn't as though he told me I couldn't start colts or take outside horses. He didn't even have any idea I was feeling that way because I couldn't find the words to tell him. I just felt pretty lost.

I had a plan to exercise colts at the racetrack for the winter, and I felt good about it. I'd have my own job again, riding colts and feeling like I could be useful again. However, the same day I was talking to the guy who would hire me, I got some happy, although unexpected, news! We were going to have a baby! I was so excited, but also completely terrified. Was I ready to be a mother? Would this change my life too drastically?

I never could have known how much I'd love being a mother. My sweet baby boy is the light of my world. I can't imagine life without him! I still find the time to work my dogs and my colts and go to work and play cowboy! Most of my days might be filled with diaper changes and baby snuggles and my horses come in second now, but I wouldn't change it for the world!

My life has done a 180 even in just the last year, but I find myself thanking the Lord for my blessings every day and wondering how on earth I got so lucky to have the life I do! I've always had big dreams for my life, but I never could've imagined it any better. ❤️