You and Me Days

Little boy, I love these days with you. These just me and you, lazy, silly, fun, quiet days at home. I love when you bring me a book to read you. I love watching you pack around your stuffed animals in just a diaper wearing your pajamas on your head. You make me laugh all day long! I love when you climb up on the couch beside me, saying "blantie!" And stealing my blanket. I love your sweet kisses and your snuggles. I love your silly self, running in circles around the house chasing after your ball.
I treasure these days so much because in just 3 short months, it won't be just me and you all day. We'll have a new little one to love, and I know you won't like sharing mama's attention at first. I also know, though, that you'll love this baby so much. You have your baby doll that you carry around, rock, sing to, and give kisses. You love to give my growing belly kisses and sit next to me with your hand on my belly to feel the baby kick.
Just now, you saw me in tears writing this so you climbed up on my lap, rubbed my face, and gave me a kiss. You keep saying "hi, hi," and making sure I'm okay. You're the sweetest thing in this whole world.
You never do anything halfway, whether that be giving loves or throwing fits. You're my favorite little person, and I'll always treasure these days when it was just me and you. ❤

When the Good is Hard Too

Sometimes in life, it's so easy to get caught in the muddle and the ruts of every day life that you start to forget your purpose. You forget why you're doing what you're doing. Whether it's because of a boring office job or the fact that you're going through a particularly challenging time, it can be hard to keep your mind on the bigger picture.
In this stage of my life, I've been married for a little over two years and live on a big ranch with all the horses I could want. I remember the days when I could only DREAM about the life I have. I have a hilarious, wild child of a boy that I'm lucky enough to stay home and raise. I feel blessed to be welcoming baby number two in a few short months.
However, even with all the amazing blessings in my life, the good parts can still be hard. My days are mostly mundane and toddlers throw a LOT of fits. I have a high risk pregnancy so I haven't been on a horse since October and let me tell you, that is not good for my mental health. I miss starting colts with my hubs and roping and just even having energy at all. I sit here alone with my thoughts and honestly, sometimes I wonder why I decided to have another baby this soon. Of course I'm excited and feel so blessed. At the same time I remember how long it took me to get back to normal after the first baby. The emotions get to me sometimes. And then, scrolling through Facebook, I see something small like a shirt that says "Raising Ranchers" and that's all it takes to help me remember. I'm doing something so much bigger than I can comprehend right now.
This season of life is so, so short compared to the big picture. I'm sacrificing a lot of freedom in this season to raise good humans and I know it's the most important thing I'll ever do. I know how lucky I am to have this life and how lucky my kids are to get to grow up this way.
So, mamas, or anyone caught in a rut, no matter what season you're in, remember your why. Remember that every season is shorter than you think. It's okay if the good is hard too. Keep on going because you will look back and realize you were doing some of the most important work of your life. ❤ XO, The Cowboy's Wife 

Happy New Year

Yet another year has passed, and time seems to be marching on so quickly. I'm at this weird stage in my life where I was still a kid just a few short years ago, and suddenly I have a family of my own. So, so many things have changed for me just in the past year, let alone the whole decade! It's astounding the differences in my life now and the person I have become.
The important thing? I am proud of the person I have become. In just three years, I feel as though I am a totally different person. From rebellious teen to wife and mother...that's a pretty big change!
In the last year, we have moved, celebrated many firsts, found out we were on baby number two, had some pregnancy complications, bought and sold horses, been through sicknesses, grown in our marriage, and so many other things.
That's a lot to happen in one year, and I almost felt as though it was mundane compared to the two previous ones! I know everyone makes fun of the "new year, new me" posts, but think about it. Are you even the same exact person you were a year ago? I'm certainly not. Sure, there's some habits I wish I had kicked but overall, my year changed me. I learned lessons, some hard and some wonderful. I've become more grateful and learned to see the world through a lens of "look at everything we've been blessed with!" I've learned how important it is to look at someone else's side of the story. I'm not as hard hearted as I used to be.
So yes, it is a new me going in to 2020. What about you? Did you let 2019 change you for the better or worse? Did you let your trials make you callous or let them soften your heart? When you think about your goals for 2020, or for the next 10 years, know that those years will change you. It's up to you to decide if that will be a good or a bad change!
XO, The Cowboy's Wife